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Monday, July 24th, 2006
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3:40 pm
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you know what, i give up, i think i may take someone up on their offer and i will no longer have to deal with this.
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| Monday, June 26th, 2006
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12:20 pm
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| You Should Be A Pisces | 
What's good about you: carefree and compassionate, you are truly light hearted
What's bad about you: when things get bad, you tend to retreat and not let others in
In love: you're a true romantic - it's flowers, bubble baths, and candles all the way
In friendship, you're: eager to lend a sympathetic ear and likely to develop a deep connection
Your ideal job: bartender, magician, or secret agent
Your sense of fashion: simple clothes that don't distract from your personality
You like to pig out on: seafood - from fish sticks to salmon
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this amuses me because I am a pisces, haha.
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| Friday, June 23rd, 2006
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1:10 pm
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| Thursday, June 15th, 2006
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6:09 pm
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Glad to know the people in my family that I thought I could trust the most, only go behind my back and talk about me. Great. Just great. Glad to know people continue to prove that they don't know the definition behind the word trust. Looks like the people I trust is getting cut down again. Why does it hurt so bad.
current mood:  sad
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| Sunday, May 28th, 2006
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1:43 pm - insight into my life, haha, not
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So, it seems that I have not actually updated this in a long time, like a real update...
Lets see, what would all of you like to know:
School- School went well for my freshman year. I met a bunch of awesome people, became good friends with several, some which I will see in a few months when I start my sophomore year, some which have graduated, (Aimee), with whom I have made good memories and will miss. I had some crazy times, some bad times, good times, but came out of all of it better. I miss my CSC'ers and though I am happy to be home, I miss the people that I got so used to seeing everyday. I kept true to myself for once, I didn't change to make others happy, I didn't give in to what I thought people wanted. I decided to be happy for myself and hoped people would like me for who I am.
Self- I have gotten better with issues in my life. I have stopped two very destructive things I was doing to myself. It was very hard to do, but I managed to do it, mainly with the help of a great friend, Bobby, and a ton of support from two of the best people in my life, Becky and Katie. I'm not saying the continuation of me stopping is going to be easy, but it is going to be something I need to continue on with in my life. Body image wise, my confidence sucks and is at rock bottom, but I work out with a friend Mon-Fri, every morning, 10am, so hopefully that will do something for me. I am trying to find ways in order for me to be comfortable with what I see in the mirror on a daily basis, I am far away from that goal, but atleast I no longer think I'm ugly, so thats one step, we'll see how good the rest goes.
Summer- I am not working this summer. It is weird, after working at the farm for 5 years, to not be working, just is weird, I'm not quite too sure what to do with myself. I need to pass a test and then I will hopefully be enrolling in a class to became a CNA, certified nursing assistant. It will be all of July, Mon-Fri, 8am-3:30pm, I think the hours for clinicals are different, but those are the current plans anyway. Hopefully that works.
Happiness- I have been very happy lately. I'm at a good place right now, minus some fiasco of last night with drunkenness, not my own, but someone else's, things have been well for me. I have a boyfriend, who makes me very happy, Dan, and that has been going very well for me, has made me very happy. He's sweet and makes me laugh a lot, and just makes me happy. I am going to Newport, RI, with him this coming weekend, it should be fun. I have never really gone anywhere with anyone, but it should be fun. I'll get to meet his parents and whatnot, so it should be cool. I'll let you all know.
Umm, anything else anyone wants an update on, let me know. I'm sure I left out a lot, but I'm not quite too sure what to write, what anyone wants to know. Hope you all are well. Enjoy the pictures.
( pictures )
current mood:  happy
current music: the ataris- boys of summer
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| Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
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1:47 pm
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I am without a doubt freaking out, I don't know what I am doing about a job, I don't know what I am doing about anything, the stress is going to eat me up and the rain is starting to get to me. I am going to go nuts.
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| Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
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9:37 am - oh the boredom
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| Monday, April 10th, 2006
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9:00 pm
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| Sunday, April 9th, 2006
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9:59 am - waiting
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| Wednesday, April 5th, 2006
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12:09 am
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i am compulsively playing with silly putty and staring at pictures of bones... if i don't get an A on this test, I very well may cry
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| Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
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10:22 pm - stole from julie :)
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| Friday, January 27th, 2006
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6:44 pm
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| Thursday, January 19th, 2006
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10:51 pm
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stole from julie...
1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:
13. favourite candle scent:
RECOMMEND
1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:
PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.
current mood: sad
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| Thursday, December 15th, 2005
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10:34 pm
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Moved into my new room, set everything up in the dark, yeah a transponder blew at like 2pm, new london, sunapee, other surrounding towns, no power, oh it was fun, not, i was so bored. lol. oh well, must go study for a final, see ya
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| Sunday, December 4th, 2005
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12:54 pm
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| Friday, December 2nd, 2005
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11:12 am
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thought i'd post a random update for all of you that tell me i need to update more:
today i was organizing my drawer and i came across my yearbook from last year and i started reading all the comments people wrote me and i started to cry because i realized that i have lost touch with so many people and that i miss them.
so i just wanted to say that i miss you guys and i hope you are all doing good.
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| Sunday, November 27th, 2005
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12:53 am
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Well, I have been ordered by Keri to update my livejournal right now... so here I am, apparantly the last time I updated was Sept. 2'nd, I should keep on top of these things more.. haha...
So I hope you all had a splendid thanksgiving, mine was interesting to say the least. I was planning on going to the thanksgiving day game, ended up going to the hospital, visiting my grandma who had a stroke, then I went to my uncle's, interesting, lol, came home, watched a movie, yeah I know, I know, my life is simply so fascinating, lol. Friday went to lunch with Becky, that was a lot of fun, umm I don't remember what I did after that, lol, today hung out with Bobby for a while tonight, then talked to someone I haven't talked to in over a year, it was cool, enjoyed the conversation.
Tomorrow I go back up to NH, school has been going well. Classes are cool, people are cool. I don't know what to say about that one, ask anything, I probably have an answer.
Otherwise things have been going very well, again if there is anything you all are wondering about, send me a comment and I will answer back. I will be home again on 12/20, hopefully I will be able to see some of you before I go back in January, hope everyone is well, catch you all later.
current mood: cold
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| Friday, September 2nd, 2005
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7:46 am
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umm i don't have much to say, my bunny died this morning, so i need to clean everything out and stuff, i just didn't want to say goodbye, but i need to go do some stuff, i just wanted to let some of you know b/c some of you met max when he was alive. bye now.
current mood: crappy
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| Thursday, August 11th, 2005
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8:34 pm
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time just keeps going and going and the space of time keeps widening for people i haven't talked to, its beginning to look like i am going to be saying goodbye to my family and work friends at the end of this month and that will be it. it makes me sad because in june some people and me promised to get together before we all left and the time is winding down faster and faster and i haven't seen anyone all summer and it makes me wonder and it makes me think too much.
i have been thinking a lot lately and i have come to a lot of personal conclusions, none of which i'm going to share here not because i don't trust all of you people, but it might be too complicated to explain the decisions to everyone over the internet, i don't know. i know that i have discovered more about myself and what i want next year in the past few weeks than i have in the past few years. i know what i don't want and i know what i want. i'm not ruling out those unexpected surprises, but i have a baseline to keep myself steady and i have goals.
things have been shaky lately in many areas of my life. some stupid medical scares that just plain annoy me. my mom told me if anything continued she was bringing me to the er because i can't go to the doctor because of some stupid insurance shit, but its coming back together and it will be okay. it worries my mom me going away but it was going to happen eventually and it is happening in a month.
so yeah i have to get up at 7 on sunday morning, no scratch that i have to be at my church at 7 in the morning to sign for a scholarship, i swear i should wake up at 6:30 and go in my pajama's.
so work will be interesting next week, matt will be gone on mon and tues, katie tues till probably monday and joe all week. what am i going to do without my sister and joe?? i will be alone, well not completely, but i sew with my sister and joe is our bencher, so i will most likely be shuffled around for the majority of the week, oh well stuff like that happens, i'm not going to worry about it. i'm bringing my camera again tomorrow, i need to get some more pictures, lol, i want to see the picture debbie has of joe and i, i am sitting on an empty basket, with my back again stacks of other baskets, like 1/2 asleep, and joe is next to me in a stack of baskets, staring off into space. that was an interesting day, no tobacco so we had a 1/2 hour to do nothing, 1/2 the barn went to sleep, while others went and played hacky-sac and others just spaced out for a while. i'm not planning on going back next year, i have been there for five years, it seems that it may be time to find a different job, i'm mainly going to miss the friends i have made. it makes me smile to think of the times i have had over the past five years with so many different people and i know that these 5 years have given me memories to keep with me for a long time and have made me a stronger person in the long run.
i'm not quite sure why i just keeping writing, i don't know, i miss being able to just call up people and talk to them about whatever was on my mind, i know i need to make new friends because i will be in a new place but i don't think i'm ready to give up my old friends. i just feel lonely, i just want to be able to say hi to someone and i haven't found anyone. and i'm not saying thats anyones fault, i just miss people. its funny, my sister told me no matter how much she loves me and enjoys spending time with me, she would rather be able to go shopping with friends sometime, than always going with her little sister. i know what she means too because it would be a change, but for some reason i know for me its not going to change in this next little bit, i'm just happy that her and keri got to hang out and go shopping and just spend time together and that she is going to p-town next week with her friends. i understand how much she needs to spend time away from everything and just spend time with her friends.
well i guess i have nothing much else to say, so if i don't get to see any of you before i leave, best of luck and i'll miss you.
current mood:  pensive
current music: i say a little prayer- diana king
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| Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
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8:38 pm
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i would like to dedicate this entry to katie smigielski, you are awesome, you brought me a dunkin' donuts coffee just cause and to do that is so amazing, and i just wanted to let you know that despite the fact that when you get back to my house you are going to drink my iced latte, lol, thank you so much for thinking of me and for getting me something for no reason other than the fact that we are friends and we are hanging out tonight. your awesome, thanks!!!!! :)
current mood: chipper
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